Well, my fears have been realized. My cycle started yesterday after having blood drawn to test my levels again. Dr. is coming up with a plan here soon, but not really sure what to think. Definitely sad, but surviving. Cramps are really awful this month and my whole body aches. Wine would help, but I'm working, so that's not an option. Took 4 IBP this morning, and just took at T3 (codine). Have heat on my back, but just really yucky feeling.
I know God has a plan, and that he cares about all of this. I know people have babies more than 2 or 3 years apart and it's great, I just really want my kids to be able to experience being in high school together someday, and even college. I am thankful for modern medicine though, that can explain this and thankful that God lead me to Dr. Brasch over 3 years ago. He takes the time to explain exactly how the cycles work and what my body is probably doing so that I can understand the game plan when we come up with it.
He is not in the office today, so the results are back, but I won't get to talk to him until tomorrow. He'll have a plan and we'll move forward. Who knows if this will be a long journey or a short one, but either way, the Lord is on it with me and I love him.
So sorry you have to go through this. Getting pregnant for me was difficult and i even had a miscarriage between my girls. They are 5 years apart. I wanted them close in age so that they'd get to grow up together and play together. But now I love the age difference. I get to enjoy Sydney being a baby and Kylie is so loving to her. They already play together and though I know they will fight I can already see that they will ne close. Praying for you as you wait (the hardest part) for Gods perfect timing. I know it's not easy!
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